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Hello Everyone! Saturday Nov 20, 2021: I decided to do a little social experiment. I wanted to do a Social Media Cleanse and thought I'd make it interesting by not posting anything until someone noticed that I hadn't posted in a while... So I decided to stay away from social media except to check notifications and answer messages. I wanted to see how long it would take for someone to say something about my lack of media presence. (I usually post something on a daily basis). On a typical day I found myself spending endless hours just scrolling through social media and not getting anything done and it just flat out didn't bring me joy... I would spend hours looking at other people's posts and comparing myself to everyone (I hate that about myself). It dimmed my light to say the least... Saturday Nov 27, 2021: Today marks a week since scrolling through social media...This week was surprisingly alot easier than I anticipated. No one has said anything yet and I haven't h...

After spending most of my life looking for outside validation and for people to tell me who I am. I'm super proud of myself that for the past decade I've been working extremely hard on myself and my personal development. I'm happy to announce that today I'm far more confident in who I am and where I'm headed. I no longer need anyone to approve of me or my plans. I try to always show up as the best possible version of myself and I also expect the same in return.  Xx Infinite Love & Light xX

 Hello there, These past few years I've been working really hard on myself to clear blockages and grow as a person. One area which I haven't quite cracked yet is romantic relationships. For a long time I kept thinking the person I was suppose to meet wasn't ready for me yet. But lately I came to a realization that maybe it's me who's not ready for them. That thought really humbled me and showed me that maybe there's still things I need to work on before I'm ready to meet someone. I'm truly content being single but I'm excited at the idea of meeting someone to grow and evolve with. Where we feed off each other and help each other see things from different perspectives. I'm ready for the full package: an emotional, spiritual, mental and physical connection. Xx Infinite Love & Light xX

Happy Tuesday everyone, I've decided that I would write my innermost thoughts here (even though no one sees it) with the hope that one day someone will find my blog and find my words comforting because they won't feel so alone anymore. I've had a great weekend with a friend I can be completely open and transparent with. It was very refreshing and humbling. I really needed to come back to myself and remember my convictions. In my everyday life, right now, I don't get to talk about the universe, angels, life and death, and all that fun, deeper stuff. I'm left with my thoughts most of the time, although I do write them down in my journal. It's pretty amazing to see how my thought process evolves with times. Looking back just one year ago, there's some things that I see in a completely different way. Stay tuned for more updates :) Xx Infinite Love & Light xX

Hello everyone, Being a spiritual person I'm constantly receiving downloads and messages from my guides/higher self/Angels whatever you want to call them. And I've been feeling the pull to write this for a while now and today just felt like the right time... At the risk of being judged and misunderstood, here goes... 9 years after being diagnosed this is how I'm processing Bipolar "Disorder"... For a long time I struggled with the title because I didn't want a label and I didn't think anything was wrong with me... It felt like I was being punished for being a hyper spiritual person. Truth is, to survive in this world I need to be medicated (at least for now) so that I stay grounded. I'm so spiritual that my physical body has a hard time staying grounded in this reality and that is where medication comes in. As of right now the only medication I'm on is Lithium which is salt which helps control my highs. When I'm in Mania, I don't eat and I ...

How come manic episodes last a minute and are followed by months/years of a more depressive state? I miss being manic, it was closer to my real personality. I use to be energetic, motivated, go-go-go kind of person. If you met me now you wouldn't say so... Is it enough to just function? Just going through the motions without really living... I don't recognize myself anymore. Everything I use to love to do I barely do anymore... Getting up in the morning is a chore. Getting through the day is a struggle. I need to kick myself in the butt just to do the simplest tasks. I'm not really depressed, I would say I'm more neutral. I don't get excited about things anymore. Every day is just more of the same.  Hopefully things turn around soon... 

 I dream of a world where everyone is free to be themselves. A world where most people aren't under different spells. A world where there is no less fortunate, where everything is fair. A world where nothing else would compare.  A world where happiness is the trend. A world where the truth we do not bend. I dream of a world where kindness spreads faster than hate.  A world where it isn't so hard to have faith. A world where the sky is always blue A world where, to our hearts we can be true. A world where we can fly higher than the sun. A world where we realize we are all one. What does your dream look like?

Hi Everyone, Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to live life to the fullest every single day. I think it would be exhilarating and full of adventure. I wonder and dream about what it would be like to achieve that life. What am I missing? How can I make this dream a reality? How can I turn this brain fog and uninspired living around and live my best life? Step 1: Be grateful for the life I have Step 2: Do something that sparks joy everyday. Even if it's something small Step 3: Step out of my comfort zone as often as possible Step 4: To be continued...

For the days where I'm just counting down the minutes until I can go back to bed... Days where I can barely control what goes on inside my head... Days where I wonder what I'm still doing here... Days where I can barely control my fear... Days where nothing seems to make sense anymore... Days were I'd rather hug the floor... Days where nobody understands me... Days where nobody's words could set me free... Days where I'm not so good at faking it anymore... Days where my whole life feels like a bore... Days where I don't find anymore meaning... Days where I don't have anymore feeling... Cheers to days like that...

He're a link to a poem I wrote a while back, it's still just as true today... xX https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5IdNBhL_1w&t=6s

May we all have the grace to love ourselves, the wisdom to know our worth and the courage to accept nothing less than we deserve...xX

*Post from december 8th 2019 (Facebook)* How do we start a conversation that no one seems to want to have?... Hi, my name is Michelle Soucy and 7 years ago I was diagnosed with type 1 Bipolar Disorder… What does that mean exactly? I have a mood disorder that, if not under control, makes it so that I can’t function “normally” in my day to day life… Hyper mania is my downfall. Actually, I don’t fall, I fly… A bit too high, and all without the use of drugs or alcohol… When I ’m having an episode I don’t eat or sleep for weeks at a time because “I don’t need to”. I literally get high on life and the beauty that surrounds me. So much so that it gets very overwhelming and I can’t stop crying…That in turn makes it look like I’m in a depressive state, but in reality it's the complete opposite of how I’m feeling. After 7 years of being able to live my day to day life seemingly “normal” I had another episode. I’m not out of the woods yet, I’m on a temporary break from the hospita...

I've gotten the urge to blog again so I thought I'd see if my old blog still existed. To my surprise, after 7+ years, it's still here. It has been interesting reading my old post and seeing how my writing style has evolved over the years, but I guess I should let you be the judge of that. I've decided to use this blog to express myself. Whether or not anyone reads it is out of my hands but I do hope that if anyone does come across my blog, they find what they're looking for in my words...xX

Dear Michelle, Where should I start? This year has been a pretty eventful year for you, but despite it all I think you’ve managed pretty well. A lot of changes have come your way and they’ve opened up a whole new world for you. It was hard, you cried, you were scared but you’ve made it through. The battle isn’t over yet though, it’s gonna be a life long battle, life is gonna throw you curve balls and you’re gonna have your ups and downs but if you keep looking on the positive side of things and keep looking for ways to better yourself then you’ll be ok. A wise man once said: Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you make of it. So make sure that you take all you can from every situation and learn from it. Everything that has happened to you is what makes you who you are today. Life might hand you things you never expected but at the end of the day one thing is never gonna change: You’re always gonna be you! Love, Michelle

Hi everyone, this post is a bit different from things I've written in the past. It pretty much sums up everything I've been through in the past couple of months. If any of you can relate or think you know what I'm talking about in this poem feel free to leave a comment. :) I hope you'll like it!                                                                     Lost and found How can I say what's in my heart when I don't even know where to start Even if the world keeps going round My world was turned upside down Where do I go from here? Who's gonna lend a loving ear? Who's gonna try to understand? Who's gonna lend a helping hand? I fly so high I could touch the sky I sink so low, to the bottom I go From feeling like a goddess to feeling worthless How will I learn to control this illness? Ev...

People's opinions are just that: opinions . They're only true if you believe them. No matter where you are or what you are doing in life, someone will always be judging you, might as well start ignoring it now. At the end of the day when you go home, you're only left with yourself and your thoughts You can accomplish so many great things if you just look inside of yourself and realise how beautiful you are.  Just be yourself, you are perfect just the way you are! <3 Because I love quotes so much here are a few related quotes: -Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent -  Eleanor Roosevelt -It's not who you are that holds you back its who you think you're not - unknown -Wether you think you can or you can't, you're right! JUST SO YOU KNOW:

No matter what you want to do in life there will always be people in your way saying you can't do it. Don't be that person. Believe in yourself. People's opinions are only opinions  unless you believe them. Sad truth is most people won't even try to achieve their goals, they'll be too afraid to try. Too afraid of the outcome too afraid of failure. Don't be one of those people, in the end you'll only hurt and disappoint yourself. The only one that defines you is yourself. If you don't put your whole heart and soul into your dreams then your dreams will never come true.

Its easier to say we want things to change than actually doing something to change them. Most of the time doing the right thing is harder than doing the wrong thing, but standing up for what is right is far more important and rewarding in the ends.  What if you could save someones life just by standing up for him/her? What if your opinion meant more than you thought? Even if you think your voice won't make a difference, it might, even if its not openly acknowledged. There's always someone watching and listening even if you're not aware of it.

I love intelligent quotes. I find theirs always an inspirational one you can find no matter what is going on in you life that will give you a new perspective on things. I recommend you read each one and take the time to understand them, some are a little hard to understand at first but once you do it makes a lot of sense. Here are a few of my favorite ones :

We all know people who spend all their time and energy on judging other people. Whether it be based on sexual orientation, color of the skin, religion, life style... etc. etc. etc... The list goes on and on... Some people will stop at nothing to express their opinions.