Dare to be unique. Dare to be *YOU*

 Hello again, Hope you've all been doing well and that you're happy :) Things are looking up on my end of things. I'm not sure what has changed or if it's just baby steps that are finally paying off but it's a relief to know that I can still feel happy and content. I still have lots of work to do, I mean, working on ourselves is an ever ending process. I guess I'm just gonna ride this wave and enjoy it while it lasts. I'm feeling more like myself every day. It's a good feeling. Happy Friday the 13! 

How come manic episodes last a minute and are followed by months/years of a more depressive state? I miss being manic, it was closer to my real personality. I use to be energetic, motivated, go-go-go kind of person. If you met me now you wouldn't say so... Is it enough to just function? Just going through the motions without really living... I don't recognize myself anymore. Everything I use to love to do I barely do anymore... Getting up in the morning is a chore. Getting through the day is a struggle. I need to kick myself in the butt just to do the simplest tasks. I'm not really depressed, I would say I'm more neutral. I don't get excited about things anymore. Every day is just more of the same.  Hopefully things turn around soon...