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How come manic episodes last a minute and are followed by months/years of a more depressive state? I miss being manic, it was closer to my real personality. I use to be energetic, motivated, go-go-go kind of person. If you met me now you wouldn't say so... Is it enough to just function? Just going through the motions without really living... I don't recognize myself anymore. Everything I use to love to do I barely do anymore... Getting up in the morning is a chore. Getting through the day is a struggle. I need to kick myself in the butt just to do the simplest tasks. I'm not really depressed, I would say I'm more neutral. I don't get excited about things anymore. Every day is just more of the same.  Hopefully things turn around soon... 

 Hello friends, It's been over a year since my last post, time flies... It seems I'm not very good at consistently keeping up a blog lol What's been going on with me in the past year? Well... I've struggled for a while because of my bipolar disorder... This year has been all about trying to find balance and being more adaptable. No matter what life throws my way I always find a way through it but this year has really been a trying year. I have to admit, I still don't feel 100% but I'm working hard everyday towards becoming the best possible version of myself. Hope you guys are doing well xo 

*Post from december 8th 2019 (Facebook)* How do we start a conversation that no one seems to want to have?... Hi, my name is Michelle Soucy and 7 years ago I was diagnosed with type 1 Bipolar Disorder… What does that mean exactly? I have a mood disorder that, if not under control, makes it so that I can’t function “normally” in my day to day life… Hyper mania is my downfall. Actually, I don’t fall, I fly… A bit too high, and all without the use of drugs or alcohol… When I ’m having an episode I don’t eat or sleep for weeks at a time because “I don’t need to”. I literally get high on life and the beauty that surrounds me. So much so that it gets very overwhelming and I can’t stop crying…That in turn makes it look like I’m in a depressive state, but in reality it's the complete opposite of how I’m feeling. After 7 years of being able to live my day to day life seemingly “normal” I had another episode. I’m not out of the woods yet, I’m on a temporary break from the hospita...